I am going to change my blog a little…I am going to bring in more about second life and lay off the rl stuff some…
We need to talk are some of the scariest words that someone can here…very little happy news comes from those words…after saying hi to duncan today…he said that we needed to talk…yikes…we started to discuss our relationship…our wants and needs…duncan became my master in early november of last year…as things have progressed since then…duncan has become less my master and more my boyfriend…i have liked this…he is so sweet and good to me…but the other day we had an issue…i was smoking while we were hanging out with some friends…the next day duncan said i was in trouble…so i figured i would try to talk my way out of trouble…seeing how far i could get…duncan just let me keep going…finally he said he wasnt in the mood for it…i was so disappointed…i really wanted him to punish me..to dominate me…but he didnt get that i wanted him to punish me…he thought i was fighting too hard against it…that he cant read my mind…we discussed a lot of these things…
I really love the idea of being dominated…duncan is going to try it again…but less worried about my wants…dealing instead with our needs…i am scared of what this will mean for me…i know this is something i want badly…but will have a hard time following through with these things…i know this will be hard for me…but at the same time…i am really looking forward to it…duncan is going to come up with a new set of rules…i think he is going to make them much more difficult than the ones i had before and i had a hard time following them…i am really excited by the whole idea…i am waiting to see what will come… i guess i will find out soon enough…duncan says that i will be writing much more in my blog…so you will know much more soon…
